bruh moment

i cancelled the amazon package idc anymore.

but also my week straight mood of pure shit suddenly died today and i woke up wanting to clack my heels and go running off laughing. i am all happy today and just racing with energy. wow why im now aware super much now is interesting and thats a new thing i get to tell my therapist about. but also friend was sick yesterday and left for home early. probably wont be here today. i was happy. i am happy. but th at dampens me. but its okay. next time i guess. i really want a new laptop and i want to get a display drawing pad i am so freaking tired of using paper to draw i want I NEED I NEED IT I NEED