Dear Pixel

I'm sorry about the suffering you endured during your last days. I didn't know we were this close to the end. I wish there was something I could have done for you to take away the pain. It broke my heart to hear your meowing that night, because I knew you were miserable and confused.

I wish I could have spent that last night on the floor with you. I wish you would have stayed in bed with us. I wish I could reconcile with your instinct to be alone during this time. 

I'm sorry about all the times I pushed you away from me. You probably just needed comfort and I didn't realize that at the time. I thought you were just being excessively needy. I wish I could get all of those moments back. I hope you know I loved you, and I hope you felt that when I carried you around.

I wish I showed you how much I appreciated your company more often. I miss you. I think about you constantly.

I wish we had more time.