I'm really losing it again, I'm so tired of this cycle bro i don't want to tell anyone cause i feel like its gonna sound weird that i vent so much, I'm losing everyone now i feel like im losing the only friend i have, and i feel so empty now im not eating again i relapsed im smoking more often and everything is falling apart again, till last month i was feeling so happy i thought i was healing but... » Continue Reading
okay so lets talk religion eh? i wont reveal what my religion is but i believe in god we all believe in a god so lets talk that, i feel like im not too close to god, i never have been i smoke, i listen to music associated with black magic but yesterday my mom was explaining something to my little sister about covering the body and shit (yk that one speech we all get once we hit 13) so my mom talk... » Continue Reading
okay so firstly thank you finn for helping me with my life shit and stuff okay so secondly, my mental health got real bad i started self harming once again and it got often and shit okay, then my mom was being a total shit, and that made everyting worse, cause she was being very pushy, and nosy and she found out about my SH issue, and wow she shouted ta me LIKE AR EFUCKING WITH ME RN, and then it... » Continue Reading
(idgaf about your ideas on my post so stfu and comment whatever the fuck you want i don't fucking care) i feel weird lately, heavy if you want to say like something is missing, something important is missing, and i honestly probably just need a good cry or a hug or some love but then again i have no one and im too afraid to show anyone my tears so i keep it in, i disassociate and now I'm messing e... » Continue Reading
Diary Entry: October 5, 2024 The shadows whisper secrets, heavy as the night, each word a soft caress, urging me closer to the edge. Yet here I sit, cradled by the weight of fear, a fragile thread binding me to the world that feels so distant. I dream of silence, a void where pain dissolves, where every heartbeat is a ghost, and the suffocating » Continue Reading
I'm dead I've been dead for years driving in a narrow road of unliving, pain being only the solution to survive, desperately trying to pull myself back into the world I was forced into, seconds away from closing my eyes forever.. . » Continue Reading