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today i had another one of these episodes i have been having as of lately. lately meaning the past two years. mainly 2024 and now coming into 2025 its gotten worse. I've dealt with a lot of traumatic stuff my whole life but 2024 was definitely the worst year of my life. quite surprised im still alive ngl. every year i wait for my birthday to come but it means nothing. it means nothing to me becau... » Continue Reading
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long time no see.. so much has happened within these 4 months. woaaahh.. so much life changing things like graduating high school, go into my top choice/course for university and obviously met a whole bunch of people. closer with people i didnt think id be close with and just have done things i didnt expect myself to do. i travelled for a bit which was fun (i miss canada :,)) mental health is qui... » Continue Reading
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there is so much i want to say BUT I JUST CANT please one day, let me tell you everything i want to tell everyone everything everyone should know everything what am i saying help LOL i want to tell you everything without feeling judged but also i want u to live inside my brain for a day plez i w » Continue Reading
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i feel as though the more i talk about my thoughts, opinions, emotions i can never seem to word anything the way i want my head is so full of everything that i cant formulate and express what i want to say i am thinking about so many different things yet i cant express it properly so now i just look stupid. i promise im not stupid what am i sayingggg bruhhhhh » Continue Reading
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i havent ever been loved properly i think thats why i crave it so much i want to know what it feels like to be cared for and to be loved im quite frankly at my lowest point i dont know what to do anymore i dont ask anyone for help i need help though i need something » Continue Reading
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i cant tell if this is some sort of trauma rejection, but ever since i was able to dream, i have always had nightmares of being SA’d by someone close to me. its always something that has haunted me and something that has always made me fear him. not only have a feared him my whole life due to this and other things, i have never ONCE felt comfortable around him. i cant tell. but there » Continue Reading
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it angers me how selfish people are, or maybe im too selfless? i wonder what it feels like to actually be selfish. certain aspects of me can be selfish, but i cant name any. maybe im not selfish at all. i have so much to give. i think so much. my mind is occupied by so many different issues, most, unrelated to me. am i too selfless or are people undeservi » Continue Reading
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why do i crave to be wanted? its not like i care to be noticed, or beg for attention. if anything im quite the opposite. i always wait for things like that to occur. im not in desperate need of any of that. i just want to be wanted. i want to be wanted for who i am and what i value. i want to be wanted in every single way possible by one person. im at th » Continue Reading
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i wish i could just ask to talk to someone when i need it. i hate asking for help these days. i bottle everything up and want to actually die. i wish i could just have someone listen to me without the worry of sounding weird. i cant talk to anyone about anything because no one gets it. no one understands what i deal with and how i respond to it . i genuinely feel the » Continue Reading
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i cant trust anyone not even my own family its becoming so tiring i dont want to be here anymore, physically and mentally around any of these people i hate everyone » Continue Reading
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i dont even know where to start. if i could i would seek help for all my emotions and i hate to be a burden and just an absolute weirdo freak. there isnt even anything wrong with me my emotions get the best of me, turning me into what i am now. i had a whole bunch of things i wanted to write down but now i have forgotten. my memory fades with all this thinking i do » Continue Reading
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