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i was just explaining my homoerotic friendship (???) i had with my online best friend of four years to someone. honestly got me thinking deeper about the situation. although it was one sided (her being the one in love with me) it still was just like so ???? at the start i only thought it was obsession, most people get obsessed with me in the beginning of our friendships i notice that a lot. » Continue Reading
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every time i leave this house, the more im reminded that im so much better away from everyone. soon i will get out of this place and figure out the world on my own. you know, ive always pictured my peak happiness to be away from everyone i know, starting fresh making money doing the things i love being in love with my craft maybe being in love with someone too, im giving myself two ye » Continue Reading
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every year i wait for my birthday to come but it means nothing. it means nothing to me because every birthday no one gives a fuck. even though its my day, a day to celebrate another year of living, but not one person knows how hard i try to stay alive. it would be nice to have that day be special and people actually care im alive still. i dont know what im going on about right now im going off to... » Continue Reading
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i feel as though the more i talk about my thoughts, opinions, emotions i can never seem to word anything the way i want my head is so full of everything that i cant formulate and express what i want to say i am thinking about so many different things yet i cant express it properly so now i just look stupid. i promise im not stupid what am i sayingggg bruhhhhh » Continue Reading
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i havent ever been loved properly i think thats why i crave it so much i want to know what it feels like to be cared for and to be loved im quite frankly at my lowest point i dont know what to do anymore i dont ask anyone for help i need help though i need something » Continue Reading
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it angers me how selfish people are, or maybe im too selfless? i wonder what it feels like to actually be selfish. certain aspects of me can be selfish, but i cant name any. maybe im not selfish at all. i have so much to give. i think so much. my mind is occupied by so many different issues, most, unrelated to me. am i too selfless or are people undeservi » Continue Reading
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why do i crave to be wanted? its not like i care to be noticed, or beg for attention. if anything im quite the opposite. i always wait for things like that to occur. im not in desperate need of any of that. i just want to be wanted. i want to be wanted for who i am and what i value. i want to be wanted in every single way possible by one person. im at th » Continue Reading
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i wish i could just ask to talk to someone when i need it. i hate asking for help these days. i bottle everything up and want to actually die. i wish i could just have someone listen to me without the worry of sounding weird. i cant talk to anyone about anything because no one gets it. no one understands what i deal with and how i respond to it . i genuinely feel the » Continue Reading
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i cant trust anyone not even my own family its becoming so tiring i dont want to be here anymore, physically and mentally around any of these people i hate everyone » Continue Reading
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write love letters to someone receive love letters be held be reassured be loved » Continue Reading
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i dont even know where to start. if i could i would seek help for all my emotions and i hate to be a burden and just an absolute weirdo freak. there isnt even anything wrong with me my emotions get the best of me, turning me into what i am now. i had a whole bunch of things i wanted to write down but now i have forgotten. my memory fades with all this thinking i do » Continue Reading
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