I’m locking the fuck in Rn, swear on my life this hw is gonna get done, hangover is gonna be so insane im gonna hurl everywhere, praying to god alcohol poisoning gets my ass, I’m locked in Rn. Show nights, 4 nights in a row, atp in my life I might as well rawdog them all and get zooted to the sky. Im sick and tired of ts honestly, genuinely. Put me underground I am tired of being here, I cannot wa... » Continue Reading
I struggle myself with substances but watching my two friends turn to that shit hurts more than ever, one of them is a senior and watching him slowly destroy himself has hurt me more than ever. The only times he’s been sober have been when he hangs out with me and my friends, I’ve almost lost him this year and it’s scary. Then my other friend or well ex friend has been hanging around people who va... » Continue Reading
I’m so grateful for my friends, I was in so much pain today but they managed to help me pull through. They’re awesome and I love laughing hysterically with them about our AP Psych class, they’re coming to support me with flowers for the play. It’ll be my first year as House manager, then either next year or my senior year they’ll support me when I go off to college. I thank them everyday for being... » Continue Reading
I don’t even care how I’ll feel in the morning, just anything. Anything by god, it’s been well days,or even weeks, I don’t remember anymore. Even before this, everything. I hate how dependent I’ve become in this, I can’t remember anything anymore. But anything to not remember how much it all hurts. It’ll be worth it sooner or later honestly. » Continue Reading
I can’t wait to start college next year, I feel so proud of myself to be able to get to that point. So early on as well, I hope I can continue to make myself proud and do great stuff. I know younger me would be so excited to know we made it this far » Continue Reading
I can’t wait to start college next year, I feel so proud of myself to be able to get to that point. So early on as well, I hope I can continue to make myself proud and do great stuff. I know younger me would be so excited to know we made it this far » Continue Reading
I feel guilty for feeling guilty, I feel guilty for feeling, I feel guilty for existing. I hope, some day this guilt will stop hurting me. I hope one day, I’ll wake up and understand how to live without it feeling like I’m on autopilot. I pray one day you’ll understand, I didn’t want to argue. I just knew I wasn’t doing anything right, I wish the world knew that I loathe my every breath. I reckon ... » Continue Reading