This wasn't meant to be my next entry but something came up so the other one will have to wait. Please do read this with caution, this isn't a joke, and I will continue to do this if it excites me. If something benefits me I'll do it. I'm going insane. You ever wanted to drown yourself, well I did and it made me feel like a fucking god. So I'll start off the way i know best. ... » Continue Reading
Dear reader, I feel as if I have disappeared off the face of the earth without a trace and now returned to you. It's been far too long.. i'll get in too details later. Let me tell you.. ABOUT THE FUCKING GREATEST AND WORST FEW MONTHS EVER!! [in a re-cap!..sorta?] I'll start off easy, my last blog was in late May or early June.{cant remember proper dates} . I was on a global high, I was making more... » Continue Reading
I was drowning and no one noticed, not even me. I myself was so stuck, I was suffocating and I thought that was normal. I thought that maybe it was meant to be like this. I was meant to drown so I let myself sink down till my lungs filled with water. I struggled even though I wanted it, but I guess I always put up a fight no matter what, even if I choose i wanted to drown I still fought it. your p... » Continue Reading
Dear reader, for your safety read with caution. Don't take pity on those who have darker mind. Who's really in control of you? Is it you , your mind and body or the disease, the darkness of your mind. Are you controlling yourself or is it? are you choosing what your doing or is it? Who is controlling your actions, who is pushing the words out of your mouth and who's stopping them. You want to be ... » Continue Reading
As spring fades and with summer being just around the corner I feel like this is a great time to talk about one of my favourite places, the beach. I have mentioned it briefly before, the water, the sand, the shells, and many more memories I remember as I think about the beach and what it means to me. As I start to think of the past, good and bad the beach is one of those many core memories, with ... » Continue Reading
Probably not the best way to start of a piece but what better way than a shitty title that makes n o sense. I think its the perfect way because it shows that what I'm saying is shitty and I know that it is but it has meaning, well it tries so that counts. At least it does to me so I think it counts. I should get on to explaining what this is about. I like poetry like, A LOT. I love it so much in ... » Continue Reading
I get it, if your reading this you probably think this is some pitiful teenage cry for help. It's not. what it is, is a shitty inner dialogue explanation of whatever this is. I'm lost, like really lost. The last few years have been shitty and with there ups and downs. I've lost many friends but gained so many new ones. I don't regret that one bit, if I had a time machine and I had the chance to ... » Continue Reading