I can't do it just rn. soon my mom will have birthday. though I hate her. but don't wanna disappoint her. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKKKKKK I'M BECOMING EXTREMELY SUICIDAL RN I DUNNO WHAT I'M GONNA DO » Continue Reading
recently I feel myself quite happy. bcz I know, that in a few days I'll finally end it all. YAYYYYYY!!!!!!!!! I know that it would be too difficult for me to do this when sober, so I plan to drink some vodka that for some reason just stands in my room. and eat some random pills. also, when I'm dreaming, and I don't like what I'm dreaming about I try to find any high building to jump off of it. so ... » Continue Reading
I don't know what to do. everyday i cry and think abt su1cide. these thoughts chase me constantly. when I was going to my section, I thought about throwing myself under a car. and even tried to do it. I can't study normally, I get constantly bad grades. my mom yells at me and even beats me bcz of this. I'm just tired. with each passing day I feel myself worse and worse. I want to end all this. I'm... » Continue Reading
like a month ago, I got back from the mental hospital. they held me there for 40 days. my parents trying to instill to me that doctors in here cured me, but I don't feel that. my schizophrenia became only stronger with those stinky antidepressants they gave me. I still hear voices in my head, I still see some weird creatures. nothing helped me. everything's only getting worse. I still think about ... » Continue Reading