i wasted half my day. i woke up, i showered, i ate brunch and i slept. i had a lot of shit to do but i honestly don't want to. well, i'll just visit my grandma's house now and then when i come back, i will clean my room. then maybe i will paint and lastly, if i have energy left, i'll study or else i will study when i wake up tomorrow. i need to stop feeling guilt for resting. » Continue Reading
so i have to paint something for this grandma of mine that i hate (shes a bitch to my mom, me and basically anyone thats a woman in the family) but like shes still my dads mom so im kinda forced to be nice. anyway, i chose this as as all the other still life art i found were either too detailed or a bit bland. if i do end up finishing it, ill post the results yay !! ps. she only fw still life art » Continue Reading
this year is going by super fast. today i was a bit more kinder to myself. i did not feel as pretty probably because i did not follow along my routines and also because my god complex is slowly slowly shattering. i am learning to see the beauty in everyone including myself. no one is better than anyone. i watched the movie taxi driver and studied a bit. i wasted most of my day playing pocket love.... » Continue Reading
i wasted half my day. i feel bad as i basically wasted my weekends. i think i'll be fine. i should just get the school work done first. i want to be kinder to myself. » Continue Reading
im on my period and oh my god my stomach. i wish i had a deick and was a man. if i had a penus i would cover it with fake rhinestones. » Continue Reading
i'm a lesbian and i'm in my post first wlw break up era. i'm like over it now at this point but this guy has been testing my nerves. tbh i questioned myself a lot about whether i liked him but i just realised that i liked the validation i'd get if i was with him compared to a girl. dont get me wrong, if he was a girl, i'd smash. he is so my type like unconventional beauty, deep voice, smart and ca... » Continue Reading
today was a slow day. i woke up at like 12 pm as i didn't have school. i wasn't very productive but i will be from tomorrow. im struggling from the lack of self acceptance. i used to journal but now i can't even open up to myself. im scared that im going backwards. but on the other hand, i believe in myself. i know that no matter what happens or how bad something is, i'll pull myself out just alri... » Continue Reading