I'm bi but idk, ik i like girls but I'm unsure when it comes to men. I've only ever been in one relationship and that too was titleless. Maybe people dont approach me or I'm not the type to get liked. I'm not trying to be pick me but for some reason, I feel as if I need someone to like me to prove to myself that I'm loveable. I feel spoilt. I have a decent family and amazing friends whom I know lo... » Continue Reading
the only thing keeping me moving is the fact that i am not where i used to be though im not where i want to be. im burnt out. theres so much on my plate. idk what to do anymore. » Continue Reading
i wasted half my day. i woke up, i showered, i ate brunch and i slept. i had a lot of shit to do but i honestly don't want to. well, i'll just visit my grandma's house now and then when i come back, i will clean my room. then maybe i will paint and lastly, if i have energy left, i'll study or else i will study when i wake up tomorrow. i need to stop feeling guilt for resting. » Continue Reading
so i have to paint something for this grandma of mine that i hate (shes a bitch to my mom, me and basically anyone thats a woman in the family) but like shes still my dads mom so im kinda forced to be nice. anyway, i chose this as as all the other still life art i found were either too detailed or a bit bland. if i do end up finishing it, ill post the results yay !! ps. she only fw still life art » Continue Reading
this year is going by super fast. today i was a bit more kinder to myself. i did not feel as pretty probably because i did not follow along my routines and also because my god complex is slowly slowly shattering. i am learning to see the beauty in everyone including myself. no one is better than anyone. i watched the movie taxi driver and studied a bit. i wasted most of my day playing pocket love.... » Continue Reading
i wasted half my day. i feel bad as i basically wasted my weekends. i think i'll be fine. i should just get the school work done first. i want to be kinder to myself. » Continue Reading
im on my period and oh my god my stomach. i wish i had a deick and was a man. if i had a penus i would cover it with fake rhinestones. » Continue Reading
i'm a lesbian and i'm in my post first wlw break up era. i'm like over it now at this point but this guy has been testing my nerves. tbh i questioned myself a lot about whether i liked him but i just realised that i liked the validation i'd get if i was with him compared to a girl. dont get me wrong, if he was a girl, i'd smash. he is so my type like unconventional beauty, deep voice, smart and ca... » Continue Reading
today was a slow day. i woke up at like 12 pm as i didn't have school. i wasn't very productive but i will be from tomorrow. im struggling from the lack of self acceptance. i used to journal but now i can't even open up to myself. im scared that im going backwards. but on the other hand, i believe in myself. i know that no matter what happens or how bad something is, i'll pull myself out just alri... » Continue Reading