Why do I always mess everything up? I'm always doing something wrong. there's never something I'm doing right. too fat, too stupid, too lazy, too much acne, i missed one spot when i was cleaning-- i cry too much, you worry too much- you interrupt people too much (my untreated adhd makes me do it and i never mean to). is there anything im doing right? why can i love myself? why doesnt anyone love... » Continue Reading
I don't think I'm my boyfriends, because if I was he wouldn't act the way he does. thinking about it now- I don't know what I am to anyone in my life? and it hurts. I try to connect with people but I feel like I can't... I want to... but I shut down because they don't seem interested in me. like who I am or what I have to say. no one wants me in their life forever. they don't want me to stay and ... » Continue Reading
No, I don't mean the super unrealistic stuff yk? But just... the cute stuff. Cute dates, getting love letters- told romantic things like how loved I am. It's weird, because almost all of my life I never really felt loved by friends or family. And when I did feel it, it was temporary, and inconsistent. I went through relationships where I had constantly been stepped on and left for friends- and the... » Continue Reading