so prom isnt till tonight. buttttt im getting ready now!!! i washed and stlyed my hair (hopefully how I did it, it will be a lot more naturally curly ) and now I'm trying to figure out the makeup I want ! i have star stamps (eyeliner) and I think Im gonna just to do that, I'm gonna be the only girl without makeup LOL but its okay my dress is so beautiful but the only think i don't like about it... » Continue Reading
prom is thins weeked!!!!! im so excited to get all pretty and go w my friend we're grabbing food then possibly some ice cream too!!! i cant wait I'm honestly excited for him to see me looking pretty, i love getting dressed up wether it be for a hangout thing, friends or smt else » Continue Reading
my depression is back!! wooo!!! ive know its been back for a while but I didn't wanna really admit it,,,, lets hope this doesn't last long LOL » Continue Reading
prom is happening this weekend and im so excited !!! i cant wait to dress up and party w my friends. i really hope there isn't any slow dancing, it would be so fucking awkward... anyway I'm more so excited about the after party, its l8 into the night andddddd my parents are letting me either come home after it or stay the night at my friends. UGHH I cant wait for my cute little outfit, I have a ... » Continue Reading
SO I spent a good 2 hours (including now) crying bc I broke my blinds!!! It genuinely isn’t a big deal but my dad is gonna tell at me abt it… but luckily/hopefully my brother is coming over tmw to help me w it. I can’t stop crying. I think it’s bc I know that we will forever struggle w money/will never have enough, so me accidentally breaking the blinds makes me feel like I’m wasting their money t... » Continue Reading
i REALLY need some plus sized friends. i love my non fat friends so much buts there's just a special connection that two plus size people make and I need that fr): (Ik this whole blog is worded weird..) also if it wasn't clear, I'm plus sized » Continue Reading
the title is pretty self-explanatory. i just with other people could find me beautiful, I wish that people irl could show me love the same way people online do. i want someone who is dedicated to me, to make me their person. i just want to be that. I'm so tired of not experiencing love in that type of way. i hate it so much. i want someone to be able to come to me, tell me that they love me; wit... » Continue Reading
tw on this whole thing. i havent been feeling the best. at school I'm happy and act how I always do but once my friends leave I'm back to how I really feel. with summer coming up its reminding me of everything that was happened in the past, it was around this time last year that I relapsed and sh'ed. its getting hard to not do it. i say I'm better but I'm not, I'm really not. i miss it. the feeli... » Continue Reading
sometimes i forget i have depression. its not seasonal or predictable at all. it comes out of nowhere kinda like episodes... exactly like episodes I hate being mentally ill especially bc I don't live in a bad environment anymore.. cuz what tf am I so sad for? ... like you're out, no more mom. no more iffy living spots.. but nah, my brain gotta always be in survival mode » Continue Reading