last night i dreamt that i was in the shower, i was sitting under the stream with no soap. i took that clean blade and washed off any hesitation then i let it run all over me. my arms, my legs, my stomach, and all over there was red. when i woke up this morning i looked at my body, wondering where they all were » Continue Reading
sometimes i sit up in bed and imagine a disease coming to eat away all the leftovers of who i used to be. who i am beneath my skin. i want sickness without pain, or the clarity following a ravaging storm without the destruction. i want what i can't have, and i want it insatiably. i want, more than anything, to be unrecognizable. » Continue Reading
everything i write sounds like curdled, spoiled milk he said it was guilt spilling out your mouth when you flicked your ashes towards me. i want to believe it was one thing or the other. but there was so much bitterness in your laugh, i wonder, did you mean what you said? or am i rotting away without reason? even now you're right/ i write without reason. » Continue Reading
i skipped to the part where im smoking with the burn-outs i don't think i even caught fire i jumped blindly from my bedroom window and i fell so fast i never hit the ground » Continue Reading
I feel like i am addicted to sadness, like I'm comfortable with negative thoughts and i can spend hours remembering the wrong that happened in the past » Continue Reading
i just saw my grades and they were trash and now im hiding in the bathroom crying. I just haven't been able to focus on my studies, my body been so fucking sore, im tired every second of the day, my head hurts, im broke, my family keeps stealing my things and selling them for drugs, my hair is falling out, my teeth is aching, my eyes are sore from crying everyday or maybe i deserve all of this. » Continue Reading