Getting older, it feels difficult to put myself out there and meet me people, even more difficult to meet someone special. I have these fears of what if they do not like me, what if they leave like so many have before, what if they do like me a d why do they like me. I worry what if I am not good enough for them or maybe they deserve better than me. I am afraid to put myself out there and what mig... » Continue Reading
When I was younger I used to immediately thinks once I did something negative that people should hate me and I should suffer for it. If I was in a relationship and I did something wrong I would think they will want to leave me because I am trash. This lead to people thinking I was trying to manipulate them or get pity from them, when in reality I was being honest and I truly thought they would not... » Continue Reading
Over the weekend I went to King Richard's Faire, I went alone this time. I had fun and enjoyed it very much. Sometimes I think a day just for oneself can help with mental health. I also feel more at home because I like to wear traditional Viking clothing. I had nice interactions with people and someone even needed standing behind me with their large umbrella that shielded me from the rain for a wh... » Continue Reading