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Category: Blogging
i've always assumed i'm the dorkiest person in the room, which used to give me anxiety but now... idk man. fuck it. to exist is to be cringe. that's my thought today on slowly coming to terms with my imposter syndrome bullshit. ~*~*~ anyway, things are boring right now... weed, work, coding 3 days a week; mo » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
a lot happening recently. boyfriend is slowly getting better but his sciatica/slipped disc/misaligned spine or whatever is happening [we'll know for sure Monday] is still totally fucked. but he's able to walk and take care of himself a bit now, and he's not in constant pain, so that's a massive improvement. watching him be so miserable was truly unbearable. my back was messed up for a while from t... » Continue Reading
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Category: Romance and Relationships
omfg it's such a nice feeling every time i log in and no one has payed any attention to these... like i just posted on insta and as much as i try not to worry about how i'm being perceived there's a little smidgen of anxiety there, always. there's no way to put the context of... yourself... into everything you post, you know? [i say as i just stated how glad i am no one reads this] idk i'm consta... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
...that's what i coded my xanga date to say every tuesday. i remember wednesday was wiggity wiggity wednesday... idk if i remember any of the other ones... but wine-tasting tuesday was a reference to the movie The Perfect Score [a very underrated MUST SEE 2000s teen flick! i saw it in theaters in 2003...? i think? and it was a favorite for a long time] and wiggity wiggity wednesday is a reference ... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
...just for me. these days, it's so hard to have online time that's yours and yours alone. dgmw, i love sharing things with my online pals on my stories, i love fangirling and memeing and enjoying other ppls company online. but... idk. i guess most blogs are meant to be shared, and i'm making this one public, but... it's just different, idk. it's just me here, it's not meant for anyone else, so it... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
ever since i made this account i've been wanting to keep a blog, like i did as a teenager, but i can't figure out exactly... why . well, besides to hear the asmr sounds of my acrylic nails clickity-clacking over my keyboard. like, for real. that's one of the main reasons. [okay post-rambling me: the only important part is the second to last paragraph w/ the *** around it but whatever yaayy for ~r... » Continue Reading
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Category: Friends
i love when people nerd out about things, idc what it is. if you are excited about something or fixating on something and none of your friends give a shit hmu bc i know how that feels and it fuckin sucks. like, if you want someone to be stoked about what you're stoked about i'm here. like idk you collect old bottles? fuckin dope tell me about the different types of glass and shapes and shit. you j... » Continue Reading
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Category: Blogging
still not over this website. really really hoping everyone stays here. i still love twitter (hence the lack of capitalization... i just can't go back), and insta is alright, still use both every day... but this really feels good for my mental health. it's like... more of real socializing. forcing me out of my comfort zone. talking to strangers. bloggin'. gotta use my noodle a bit more, be a little... » Continue Reading
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