It is a choice. I screamed and thrashed and struggled upon being told this in the past. It felt like an endless pit when I was younger, something inevitable in a cosmic sense, a life of grief and loathing, and surviving rather than existing. Even still, it is a choice. You are not always capable of making the choice. When I was seventeen I was hospitalized because I didn't trust myself with my o... » Continue Reading
Citing is an interesting and powerful tool, let's start with that. I've written a 30 page BA thesis two years ago, and though it isn't anything comparable to a PhD, it took a lot of work, and, most importantly, a lot of sources. But that's academia, you mutter under your breath, shaking your head in disappointment. Are you an idiot, Jackie? Nobody uses sources when they fight online. An interest... » Continue Reading
I would've thought it horrible some years ago. Amatonormativity is the societal belief that romantic monogamous relatioships are the most important kind of relationship all humans should aspire to and long for. It is, also, miserable. I used to prostrate myself before men and beg. Fill this void. Love me. Be the noise in my life, so that I don't ever have to sit in the silence. I have accepted,... » Continue Reading
Allow me to complain a little. The idea of thirteen year olds making accounts here and acting unwise immediately upon pulling up makes me giggle. I remember being 12 years old on the internet and back then you did everything in your power to not let anyone know that you were under the age of 16. So now, seeing kids not only proudly proclaim their age (which is, by the way, incredibly unsafe) bu... » Continue Reading
I've gone ahead and bought a flip phone, a pink little thing that has a stroke if you ask it to read a map and can basically only google the weather if you ask very nicely. I have sn iPad, but I've tossed most of the apps on there, too, except youtube. Youtube is the wall between me and a happy life. I just end up sitting there and watching crap and glancing at the pile of books at my nightstand l... » Continue Reading