Theres this guy

I have this guy in my class who I'm like.. head over heels with and he shows minor interest back in me. I always think I may have a chance, even if its just a tiny one but I keep forgetting that I don't think any guy (AMAB) could love me because of his masculine I look. The guy I like aha also said he could never date a *f slur*. which definitely stabbed a hole right through my stomach but oh well.