FUCK MY LIFE I KEEP FUCKING MYSELF UP I AM A DEGENERATE LITTLE ASS OH MY GOD JUST DELETE TUMBLR YOU FUCK.
HE FUCKING HATES YOU YOU LITTLE SHIT. SHUT UP. LEAVE HIM THE FUCK ALONE JESUS CHRIST.
im not okay olease help me please pelase pelase jesus please 😎😎👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍🗿🗿🗿🗿💅💅💅💅💅💅💅💅😜😜😜😜😊😊😊
update two: my world is literally ending lmfao i might just have to block him or somethign i can not function like this
update three: im actually Fucking Terrified now holy Shit
update four: like Actually im having an anxiety attack jesus fucking christ i want to die really badly ohnmy God the fuck please ohnmy fogumgnjgjehkskdjdjshdjdb im gling tl die jejsudnddhug hhgkgindjd ss shfnnfuc fuck my life fuck me why do i use tumblr why do i still do this to myslef this is harmful i cant even clntorl my shit hes not gkna read it this is stupid
update five: im sorry.
i am sorry.
doesnt fix the damage ive caused you
doesnt fix the probable months of recovery i ruined
doesnt fix a thing
but im sorry.
i still love you.
update six: I CAN RECOVER FINALLY IVE FINALLY TOLD HIM HOW I FEEL I CA I WN I WJN I B I BEA TH THE SYS I WI I HAT E MYSEL EV EN MORE N O W B BUT NOW T CLOSURE HT CLR U I WIN W WINN
update seven: no im not happy we have literally agreed on parting ways my life has changed but I CAN BREATH?? FINALLY??? I CAN ACTUALLY LIKE. G. GUh. I WI W w wait he still has the doc sh.
doesnt matter i can finally become unattached i win i can live a (notso) normal life and living without him for a year will #suck but I CAN FIX MY ATTACHMENT ISSUES I FEEL PRODUCTIVE I FEEL THE potential OCD FIZZLE SLIGHTYL I WIn
update eight: okay i am in a weird spot of guilt but also im hopeful but also eeeerrrrghhhhhh the guilt but also i need to yell at you in not lighthearted ways but also i cant get mad at you but. this is for the best thats all im gonna say
this is for. the best.