July 4th, 2023

Today is July 4th, and honestly the amount of fireworks lighting up feels like a slap in the face to all the new laws that have passed this year fucking LGBTQ members over. Fuck the 4th of July, fuck the colonization of the piece of land, and lastly fuck fireworks!! The least we could do is take care of this piece of land since we stole it, but instead to celebrate the Americas, we fuck everyone over except the ones seeking a 5 second entertainment. It was supposed to be a good night hanging around a good friend of mine except everyone's stressed and I worry about my grandma with dementia handling this stupid fucking day. Take a shot everytime I say fucking, you might get alcohol poisoning. In all honesty I'm glad I'm with my friend for this, because the stupid explosions and the ignorance of the action make me so unbelievably angry. Shout out to you ash, who might or might not read this. I found myself thinking about today how glad I am to have ash in my life, after having fake friends who don't actually care about my well being. I can put my trust into this person, and in turn they do the same and it is honestly right out of a movie. I never thought I'd have a best friend, but here I am and it's really nice. So that's a good thing about today. There is immense pleasure in doing the drawings for this friend, because it makes me feel actually appreciated. On other notes, I feel bad for my partner; I haven't spoken to them much today because I wanted to put all my attention into hanging out with my friend, and I've done this a few days now and I can tell it really bothers them. I've got a date with them tomorrow though, so we will get to actually hang out since what feels like forever. I still need to figure out where the date will be since they are wanting me to choose. I'm bad at choosing. Things felt bizarre too, talking to them earlier and feeling a rush of affection. I don't know if this is a new feeling, but I appreciate it. Right now, at this very moment, ash and I are listening to mcr, and I can tell they are having a new hyperfixation. That's a positive thing, because I like hearing about their interests. 

Byebye earthlings, or anyone who reads this personal diary entry that I'm leaving public. I'm like dog with a blog oh my god. 

- Dolly