Torn / stuck

Have you ever been stuck?

This particular situation is not similar to being stuck in traffic but to being torn between the good and bad actions of someone close to your heart.

My mother talks to me crazy, but she’s my only parent. 

She sacrificed a lot for me glad she took my siblings and ran away from our other abusive parent

But she, not the nicest. She said she doesn't have to be 

She cannot like or love me, but still, I'm fed. 

When she talks to me crazy I get very angry 

But if I react to what’s being said to me, I'm instantly called ungrateful. 

But My mother does so much for me

that she misses out on money to drop me off at my activities 

She pays the way for the things I want and need

In the same breath, she calls not the name that was given to me 

Bitch doesn't sound like Emauni 

Fuck you has no resemblance to I love 

But I have some cash in my pocket for something to eat

I have a ride home 

Hot water for a nice shower

I think I'd rather be stuck in traffic.