Journal Entry #47: 05/19/23 - Graduation Party and Piano

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I had my last piano recital today. I've been playing since I was 5! I'm so glad to be done with it though, I've been taking lessons for a very long time and it was all compulsory by my mother. As always, my anxiety gets hold of me during the recital and my legs and hands shake and I make a few mistakes.

I also graduated a few days ago. The weather was finicky, but I surprisingly enjoyed myself despite the ceremony being rushed due to an incoming thunderstorm. We were told not to throw our caps, but in the end, many of my peers threw them anyway. It made me chuckle for some reason, the display of teenage rebellion at such a late age. 

However, due to my lack of friends, my graduation ceremony didn't hit as hard emotionally. When I come back to the school, I'll likely feel something. It's just kinda weird. I will admit that some of the alienation was intentional and done by me, but some of it was situational. I'll likely reflect on high school next week.

My graduation party's tomorrow! I'm super excited! I haven't had a party centered around me since I was 12, and we haven't hosted anything at the house since before the pandemic. It'll be nice to have a house full of people! There will be good food, music, gifts, best wishes, and memories I hope to enjoy with my relatives and possibly teachers. Though rain is forecast tomorrow, we should be able to hold the party inside if needed. Oh, and I made these cap candies, which are made out of chocolate with an m&m button and a sour candy tassel. They're so cute, I need to take a picture of them.

I can't wait to get those CDs though. Oh, and I got a copy of Scott Pilgrim Vol. 1 yesterday. The style's so appealing, and of course, it's 2000s media. I had an old acquaintance who loved Scott Pilgrim. Maybe I'll like it too.

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