May 1 2023 School

Today's school day went ok. 

Period 1 - Orchestra

We had to set up our instruments on the stage since our concert is coming up. I'm the leader of the violin 2 section so I'm responsible for the other violins in my section, but it's rare that they listen to me but that's ok. As long as they're happy I guess. It was really stressful and we didn't get much done. I'm scared for our concert. I want my dad to actually show up this time since it means so much to me, but I doubt that he cares.

Period 2 - Math

We had a substitute. I spent most of class working on a unit test for the summative test that is going to be held tomorrow. Even though I am not very good at math or anything really, I still managed to finish the test quickly and work on other assignments that I haven't finished yet. Most of class a bunch of girls were talking behind my back, but at this point I can't bring myself to care anymore.

Period 3 - PE

I hate PE. All it does is remind me how stupidly weak I am. Today it wasn't as bad though since yesterday I ate so much, even if it was mostly sweets. We have to run a mile in under a certain amount of time, and today was the practice day. For half a mile I got 6:30, which basically means I'm probably going to fail the test. I felt bad when we were running the mile since my friend has asthma and she was struggling. She isn't allowed to use her inhaler during PE so she ended up being barely able to breathe. After that we had to do exercises in the grass, which as always I figured out a way to get out of, since I'm lazy and worthless.

Period 4 - History

History is ok. I sit by one of my few friends, but since it's an unaccelerated class, a lot of the girls who bully me are in it. The work has been pretty easy, so my friend and I will just pass my notebook back and forth to write messages to each other. We aren't sneaky about it, but the teacher never really cares. He's too invested in all of the popular kids. I learned from my friend that my worst bully's dad died yesterday though. I don't really know how to feel. Most of this class was spent with girls talking behind my back again. It's like that every day.

Period 5 - Science

I don't really like science. I had a sub in this class as well. She was nice enough, but I prefer our normal teacher. He actually notices and cares when bullying is going on. We had another summative assignment today, but most of class I wasn't really paying attention. A kid had told everyone his hotspot password, so I had been using it to load spacehey and Discord onto my chromebook. The assignment will be easy enough to make up, anyways.

Period 6/7 English

I don't like English class. The teacher scares me. She took many psychology courses in college before she became a teacher, so that might be why I feel like she sees right through me. We've been working on an improv unit and a class novel. I don't really have any friends in that class and she is pretty strict, so not much happened. The only notable thing is that she skipped me when she was passing out the cookies that she made. I don't know why. I don't need those extra calories anyways.

On the bus after all of this I got to talk to one of my friends. She is in art class with my main bully. My bully had announced to the whole class how her dad died, (she isn't very sane, to be honest) and my other friend had loudly said,'skill issue.' I think that she might have gotten reported for that. If she did, she will probably just say it was in defense for when my bully had called my friend a fat ss. That's everything that's happened so far today though. I don't want my dad to get home. I don't want him to be around me. Anyways I'm going to find something to eat while I still can. Bye. 3:28 pm