spring 23'

i finally got a job, the last few steps are in a few days. not a job i'm happy about, bad pay, bad environment, but it seems like if i don't work i'm just good for nothing. 

i'm doing it for the validation that i'm worth something. in reality, i genuinely don't have the motivation to work. 

i'm so young yet i feel so burned out. 

not to go deep randomly but i don't know how much longer i can continue with this. nobody seems to be concerned for me (family wise), which is fine, its just a lot on weight on me to carry this all myself.

i hope i can sort things out soon.

happy spring