mania

I just had a flshback from a time when i was having a manic episode and i literally thought i was a celestial being put on earth to be the next prophet. i thought i could cure all social problems with my scriputre, like i fr thought i could cure racism. i came up with my own written language and was SO CLOSE to creating  a bible. its funny looking back when youre stable but i still wonder what could have resulted from that if i had gone further with my delusion. also does anyone get these flashback and cringe a bit or just laugh.

 lowkey though i do tend to feel a bit melancholic when thinking ab those times cuz i feel like i had so much fun. but then again i realize a lot of it was just the creation of my own mind and not reality. i also remember what it was like coming of those episodes and plummeting down into serious depression. definitely do not miss that lol.