2/8/23

hey. its been a rough fucking week for seemingly everyone in my life. ive been struggling mentally and paired with my period its no fun. one of my best friends is also having a mental health moment, so thats fun. ive once again been watching brokeback mountain bc its my depression and i get to pick the sad movie. life kinda sucks rn. at least valentines is next week. im going out to a sushi place tomorrow night.

ive been feeling rather aggressive lately. it fucking sucks. i hate being aggressive, but i just wanna punch a fucking hole through my wall. i did paint my nails for the first time in weeks, so that felt nice.

honestly i have no clue what im doing rn. i have a crush on this girl and i have on and off for about seven months, but everytime im about to ask her out she breaks my heart. shes done it 5 times. i feel shitty bc my dumbass brain keeps making shit up and i eel bad for accidentally gaslighting people. shit sucks balls. 

xoxo, zero