Broken

It's been months without you

And the pain melted away like chocolate on a sunny day 

Because I was devastated I couldn't save you from yourself 

Not knowing that I needed saving too 

And when I starting dating you got angry 

Like I was still yours even though you never wanted me in the first place

And there is so much you've done to make me hate myself and the way that I was. 

But now I'm fine

Because every step away from you was in the right direction

And now I have someone who loves me

Who makes me feel like I'm cute and I'm accepted

Who knows I'm worth keeping around 

And I know you hate that he takes care of me in ways that you tried to do 

But your try was hurting me, with toxic words and actions. 

With him it's easy. 

With him it's natural and loving. 

I'll never have to cut off my friends like you made do 

I'll never have to feel like I'm worthless like you told me I was 

And I'll never feel like giving up because he gives me a reason not to everyday. 

And I know that none of this is what you want to hear. 

But I'm done trying to please you because it was never good enough 

And he is my sunshine while you were my rain 

And even though flowers need the rain to grow too much rain can kill 

But he dried those tears I cried for you 

He picked me up off the floor knowing that i was broken and shattered from a love that wasn't worth those three years. 

And he alone is the reason I'm still here today 

Because you broke me in ways I didn't think I could be broken 

And when I wanted to take the life God gave me 

And when I felt so lost and hopeless 

And when I felt like I wasn't good enough to stay in this world because all of those things you told me 

He made me feel like I was worth it. 

He gave me the hope that tomorrow would be better.

So when you get angry at him for loving me enough to save me from myself, remember that without him I wouldn't be here.