well fuck me

SOOOOOOOOO the new year has decided to fuck me over already and i went from having 2 partner (poly) to 0 partners LUCKY ME. That means ya girl is single and wants directions to the nearest cliff <3 

my ex-girlfriend broke up with me because she needed time to herself (understandable) and then my ex-boyfriend broke up with me because he held on to a argument we had a few week ago and i couldnt seem to fix anything between us cause i was the only one putting effort in, he decided that now of all time was the BEST time and that was the best way to end everything between us. 7 month wasted and gone all because of a petty argument.

i spent last night trying to distract myself while at my bff's house for her bday but at around 11pm i couldnt help it when he started ghosting me and lied (before he broke up with me) and then from then onward to 1am it was a mixture of a full blown breakdown, sobbing in my friends lap, cussing him out and questioning my choices :) 

after i had calmed down we ended up calling my other friend and annoying him for awhile before we hung up and headed to bed. today we were meant to be going to the pool and what not but that was cut short because i was sent home from my bff's parents, yes they kinda kicked me out even tho i didnt know what i did wrong??? (i know why now tho) but anyways im now laying in my bed questioning if i should smoke, cry or continue watching markiplier play fnaf :,) 

anyways if you read this far thank you and i hope your year is going better then mine <3

luv ya MWAH <33

-Kris