thoughts

1)My room doesn't feel like my room, it feels cold, distance it doesn't matter what i do to it or how much i clean it. Every day i sleep, dance and get ready in my room yet the word "mine" in my room doesn't fit how i feel. This is my third room that is "mine" which may be why i feel like this. In two years it wont be my room so whats the point of trying to make it feel mine and even so i don't think there is anything i could do to it to make me feel not distant to the only place in the world where i should feel home to.

2)Everyone thinks i dye my hair to get attention or to be prettier but that is so far from the truth. I dye my hair to change, to start a new chapter in my life to forget about the past and start all over again. It helps get rid of who i was and what I've done. Almost everyday i want to crawl out of my skin and become another person mentally and physical and the closed you can get to doing that is changing everything about your appearance, chopping and dying your hair until you cant remember the girl you were before.