him

I feel stupid and angry I don't know how to feel rn bc the boy who I was talking about in my last blog he's like ignoring me Idk why he said that he loves me a lot but I feel like my feeling are getting played I just have a feeling I love him like a lot but today he texted me in school I was in a bad mood when I saw his dm I felt happy and warm we talked for a while but he left me on delivered and I got upset a bit bc it hurts me a bit when I got off the bus I walked a bit in the rain just felling the cold air made me feel relaxed and the rain just hitting my head and my warm tears falling to the ground I walked to this forest we have around were I live i walked a bit far and i stared yelling out my feelings after a while of that my eyes were red and puffy so i walked how ignoring my dad's wife bitching to me and i just played music