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literally been sooooo busy lately im actually exhausted idek where to start from, still studying for tests and driving test.

took donald to the vet and turns out he has DISK DISEASE so he cant jump for the rest of his life ☹️ i mean he can but he shouldn't cause it'll worsen his problem and he could become paralyzed. had to give him nonstop meds for a few weeks, almost finished he has about 4 more days worth of meds but he's most likely gonna need physical treatment at least once a month for the rest of his life. i have to carry him around a lot now and i'm trying to train him to not jump. got him stairs to get on the bed and he's been pretty good about using them. he's in major need of a haircut though lol.

my grandma visited last week and it didn't go as bad as i was expecting lol. we stayed at some old hotel downtown and i got the worsttt sunburn 😞 my mom said i looked like a burn victim LMAO anyways i had a breakdown over it in the room alone and then ordered chocolate cake soooooo that solved that problem. all the restaurants we ate at while she visited were good. dad came home too FINALLY and they get along sooooo well swear they could talk to each other nonstop for hours. oh and mom hurt her leg again 🙄 she didn't use a bath mat while getting out of the tub and ended up slipping. went to the dr with her and thank god it's just a sprain that'll heal in a few weeks. donald was very happy that so many people were home lol he was definitely overwhelmed. dad made food 2 nights and it was soooooo good. i was also drinking a lot to keep calm around my mom and grandma lmaooo they're very overwhelming. we read my biological grandpas autopsy report again and discussed whether or not he was murdered, family goals 🙏 grandma ended up crying to me about him abusing her while we were drinking together and i had to try to convince her it wasn't her fault 😕 was actually really sad. missing her but not her drinking 🧑‍🦯 love her tho.

my passport finally came in and my brother FINALLY got the shot, thank god. so i don't need to worry about either of those things anymore.

ocd is sometimes better, sometimes worse, learning to live with it. found out fiona apple has ocd which made me love her even more lol. her experiences are very similar to mine, made me feel less crazy. psychiatrist was talking about upping my meds but i don't wanna feel anymore numb, need to experience some kind of toxic human relationship to feel something. i ignore everyone tho lol. basically ghosted everyone when i was taking care of my dog.

omg that reminds me he literally has to stay with me in the bathroom when i shower i feel so bad cause he's scared of the sound of water 💔 BUT he peed all over my lap the other dayyyyyy i was so fucking pissed but whatever 🙄 had to get over it.

done for now.

wait no, got reminded of jonathan from stranger things because jonathan by fiona apple came on, love that song. but recently realized how ATTRACTIVE that man is like whewwwwww idk how i never noticed but now that i have??? 🧑‍🦯 also realized how relatable he is like his relationship with his brother??? and his parents??? yikessssssssssss. the part where he's yelling at his mom to stop being crazy hit too close to home.

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