entry #2

this is actually so fun, i'm loving it atm! i want to tell you a bit more about myself, and maybe vent a little since i don't actually know anyone on here and vice versa. i struggle with social anxiety, and feeling depressed a lot. it's been happening a long time, since i was a kid, i had a lot of issue with my dad, who has anger issues, and my mother, who dosen't help me when i need it. of course i wouldn't say this to their faces, who knows what trouble i'd get in, but it's nice to put it somewhere because i've been bottling it up awhile. i had a few situations growing up where my dad hit me, or hurt me, but it's really foggy because i don't remember my childhood pretty much. i have attachment issues because of this i guess. i feel vulnerable and silly for saying this, but i fall in love with a guy even if they give me a little attention. it's all i need to feel loved and wanted. of course nothing goes anywhere, and it makes me upset for letting myself slip into a fantasy that easily. i don't know a lot of people my age that have a good healthy relationship, but that's all i want in life, a loving relationship. i've wanted that since i was tiny, ever since i could properly remember. 

that was really deep, but i want y'all to get to know me, and if it makes someone feel less alone, that's fantastic. you're loved <3