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why cant parents realize the amount of shit i go through just to satisfy them, but its just never enough huh? they always just say im young and children are supposed to go through this. but it feels like torture. im being brought down by every attempt i make to not be a disappointment to them.. like why cant you realize the amount of shit you put me through because 'you dont want me ending up like them' im tired.. im sorry i cant be a fucking perfect child for you. im sorry im not your puppet. im sorry im not your fucking doll that you can just control. im a fucking human being... i just want to be free. do my work and not feel like i have to get it done perfectly. please just stop being so controlling and then be dissapointed for what you created me to be.  look at me... take a good fucking look. notice how tired and shitty i look and feel about myself. im sorry im not what you want.