I've been given glimpses of the higher consciousness and what true happiness and love is. This reality seems like hell in comparison and I haven't received those feelings here at least for a very long time. I'm struggling to come to terms with this. I suppose I can look at it as a gift when I receive these dreams or downloads. Perhaps it's a sign to me that I am capable of feeling those emotions, that they exist. I had a friend tell me that she wishes that she had the kind of life that I have. I told her that it comes at a price of loneliness, isolation and depression that I wouldn't wish on anyone. If she truly knew what I go through she wouldn't want it. It's difficult to put yourself in someone's shoes to that extreme. I'm not just blowing smoke or flexing my ego when I say that I'm a rare person. I won't get into detail further but chances are that you cannot relate to me. I can almost guarantee it.
Everything seems better in the subconscious. I am a rarity and I'm not speaking in an egotistical manner. I'm speaking the truth.