life

i find it crazy that everyone percieves life much different. some let their feelings and emotions guide them, others let their brain, or just logic as a whole. and of course, many other ways. as much as i hate other people and the way some people think, i believe everyone is connected- conciously. i dont mean that as everyone shares their own conciousness with everyone else, i mean just a part of your concious mind is in tune with everyones elses 'part' of their concious mind. simpliy put, you are your own self, but your conicousness is you plus everyone else. altho, i also believe that many people arent 'woke' or dont believe, or arent open to it. which of course, is fine. just not benefitical. anyway, why ever we are here means something. whoever put us here or whatever put us here wouldnt want their population to live knowing the truth now would they? for me, this is hard to accept. i find it hard to keep living when i dont know what im living for. no suicidal shit, because i could never leave my amazing family and friends. but i dont believe thats why im here, for others. i dont think that matters at all. i believe theyre just others 'the creator' put here, for us to not be lonely, for us to connect with others- to perhaps figure out the truth. i dont know, its just hard to believe we are here without any explaination, that scares me.