Friends?

I am so socially awkward... Its been catching up on me and ita getting to me. I used to pour my all into keeping friends and when I eventually cut them off people told me I would make new ones and that was a lie. Im starting to think theres something wrong with me because being around people even my own family is too draining. I feel so alone and lost. I also dont think I have much to offer although, a part of me knows thats not true. I am tired of giving more than receiving.