17/03/22

it is a full moon tonight.

today i felt about the same as yesterday. 

i missed my uni class because i'm so far behind in it that i feel anxious about being confronted. but i did email my tutor and apply for an extension. i think my anxiety is starting to increase now i have assessments due and i am applying for jobs and i actually have to go out into the world now. 

tomorrow my parents are out of our two week quarantine, so it will be nice to leave our little island. i know petrol prices are high at the moment so i'm slightly dreading having to get petrol tomorrow morning. i dreamt last night that they were increasing so much it had reached $4.60/L

i'm currently listening to spiritbox. i spent the day listening to the album feel something by movements and a little bit of bladee.

i laid out in my backyard today on a blanket and sorted out what assessments i have coming up. it was rather overwhelming but it helped me visualise how much work i actually have to do. i find it really frustrating that i can't keep up with a pretty standard workload but i know i just need to pass to be okay. tomorrow i am going into campus to catch up on some practical work on colour theory. then when i get back i am going out for my friend's birthday, it should be fun but i guess i'll find out.

now i will play solitaire, listen to my playlist YUCK and try to sleep

gn, ily <3