lonely hours, empty thoughts

I would never imagine myself admitting this but yea, fuck it I miss him. But i have moved on.. i don't like him as a person for what he has done to me and my feelings. But as much as I hate to say this but i fucking miss him. I miss the bare minimum shits he did to me, it made me somewhat happy. He can ignore me for weeks but a one single interaction with me would take all my loneliness away. I crave so much for his attention, i gotta admit- I badly want to feel admired and appreciated by him, which only happens once in a blue moon...

But all those little things- despite them being only the barest acts he ever did. I greatly appreciate them all.. i wonder if he ever felt the same

I would love to be by his side.. I now know my worth and i promised myself that i would not stoop that low again. My heart ached and still does to this day but it's doing a lot better and i've become wiser...

This is April era of Rari writing, I don't know when did I even wrote this but FORGET HIM I'M LIVING MY BEST LIFE