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i'm trying to weigh my options between plume, folx health, and my local family planning and good holy fuck is none of it cheap -- $99 a month for plume feels cheap in comparison to fuckin' folx health. "accessible trans healthcare" my ass; near $200 a fucking month is the absolute farthest thing from accessible. even if you're like, upper-crust upper middle class borderline-rolling-in-it, there's no way that can be considered fucking cheap.

i'm just so tired. like sure, "oh life's not fair," but i hate having to jump through fucking hoops. i hate that it's so fucking expensive either way, and i hate the american fucking healthcare system. it's broken and shitty, every healthcare system seems to be, honestly. the nhs puts you on a decade long waitlist, america poverty-line gatekeeps you. i don't know.

i don't have any answers, i'm just frustrating. like, crying at my kitchen table frustrated. yay for oversharing on the internet.

deep breaths, pma, etc.

-patch