help me it's been nearly 3 months

Okay so, i've had a crush on this guy since November 1st of last year. I'm not even sure how anymore, I get so red whenever I talk to him even though we're somewhat closer from when the crush first started... I don't know how I still get red whenever I talk to him anymore, I've been talking to him forever at this point. If you were to ask any of my friends they'd tell you I'm down bad but too pussy to ask him out. They're right, but he's the perfect man, I shit you not. When my crush first started I had a 22 pt list of why I liked him, but that was in November. I can't even word the reasons anymore without just going "hsdfhd I can't even describe it he's just so perfect and amazing and I miss him when I'm not at school." He's so nice to me, but we'll 'bully' each-other, its so nice. We're both on the JROTC drill team and like, I catch him staring at me while we march/// LIKE MF I can't focus when I know you're staring at me, there's no way he doesn't notice how I LIGHT up red whenever we make eye-contact,, Whenever we do lock-ins and then travels for competitions we get so much closer// there's another comp coming up next Saturday (the 5th) and I'm so excited for the travel there. We're leaving locking in Thursday and leaving Friday, missing school for these things is always so much fun. Even though getting my teachers to sign the permission slip is annoying. I'm running out-of words to describe this but all I can say is he is ALWAYS on my mind 99% of the time, the 1% is when I'm doing something that requires paying attention. The best way to describe him is, screaming into a pillow like a fan who just got tickets to see their idol. Well, that's all. Buh-Bye.