Blog plus Tattoo Idea!

     Well, here I am, for another update! I finally was given my ride location for working at Cedar Point and I got the ride I wanted, Steel Vengeance. Super stoked about that! 


     I applied for a Graduate Assistantship position and if I get it, then my school will be paid for 100% without loans or any other method of payment. So, crossing my fingers. 

     I have started my very own vlog, it is still pretty new, maybe a month in. That is what has kept me busy in the month of March! Check it out HERE!

      I have lost 26 pounds now, from 233 to 207. Stimmy came in so I used some of the money to buy new clothes. Hot Topic got majority of that money! I bought tons of Tripp clothing, pants, skirts, and tons of band tees. Five Finger Death Punch, The Pretty Reckless, and of course My Chemical Romance! 

     I am really excited about this summer! But also stressing out over my mom. She is making things hard on me because she doesn't want to be alone but doesn't want to move back to Ohio with me. Like, I have everything figured out for her to stay with me and everything, but she doesn't want to go. And I understand it. But I can't put my life on hold for her. I need this summer! It is my release of everything bad that has ever happened to me so I can start Graduate School with a fresh new rejuvenated outlook on life!

     I am regressing a little, I mean, I am 34 years old and dressing like I did in high school. But I was the happiest I have ever been during those years, and once I was kicked out at 19, life went to shit for me! But life is good again! I have freedom. I have love! I have happiness. So, why not express myself through my clothing by wearing what makes me happy? I am sure I will get made fun of, but who knows... maybe not. Cedar Point is known for hiring people just like me. And apparently Scenecore is a huge thing in the young adults right now. So, I may fit in... somewhat!

     People have already said they can't believe I am in my mid 30s. They feel like I am 23-26! And honestly, I hope they keep thinking that. I don't mind regressing, at least for the summer, because I feel like I need the energy of my emo days!

     This past week has been kinda bad though, mood wise. I don't know why either. Like, I haven't slept well this week at all. Lack of energy, full on lethargy, and moodiness! No, it isn't that time of month either. My best friend/sis asked me that as well!

     So, I have been thinking about a tattoo I really want to put on my right forearm.
but with a rose on the O in Romance.


with the words "I'm not okay" written curved to the bottom of the rose in a handwritten format, kind like the one in this photo...


with a butterfly sitting on the top left side of the M in 'My' to symbolize my daughter. But I want the butterfly to be pink and purple ombre.


     My Chem has really helped me through some rough patched with their music! So, that is why I want a tattoo featuring them and incorporating my daughter in butterfly form!

     So, whatcha think?


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