Kindness and Passion are all we need

Living life in my twenties is a rollercoaster. The ups and downs are evident that is very much different from your teenage years, your freedom is met with responsibilities, your responsibilities are met with sudden changes in your work, which includes the fear of being replaceable to your practical job. Now as the title says, I came to this conclusion upon thinking what is the "sense" of it all.

When everything around you are just negative updates or bad news of another new tragic stories, another disappointments, another hopelessness or emptiness, despair and misery embraces us warmly at the coldness of our feet. And it will stay until we recognize it and drag it onto our shoulders, lifting the skies in our backs, stitching the fear in our mouths and hearing the muffled screams of restlessness. These abstract thoughts I've been carrying are the result of subconscious pattern-recognition that I've been having ever since I started my adulthood and opening my mind to a more grounded reality of our world where I have to face unfamiliar problems in finance, career and relationships. 

At this point of life where apathy is normalized and corruption is defended, it is easy to give up, it is easy to succumb to that gloom and doom of emotions that is tugging your shirt every time you walk by the desolate places in Earth. I am not unknown to such state of mind, I've been alone, depressed, and had tried to end it all as all my problems seem to stack up so chaotically yet expectedly. The impermanence of life would make one question "the point" of life. Now from the title, I came to the point of kindness and passion when I embraced all these negative recognitions of our reality.

My thoughts were like this: Everything is hopeless, you meet the dead end, everyone suffers, everyone dies, you see the cycle of torture, you feel the loop of pain. And now facing that giant wall in front of me... I want to ask myself... is that all that everything there is? Is the whole universe compacted into that wall where nothing matters? Is it? Then why live at all in the first place?

The answer is not in the wall, not in-between its bricks, and especially not in what's beyond it. There is nothing beyond death. There is only nothingness in it. But the answer is in the person looking at that wall. The answer is me. The answer is ourselves and everything we are capable of. In reality, walls are not just walls but are structures. They can be for a house, they can be remade, they can become a study of interior design or architecture, they can be anything. But it is there, a wall that is death that will never go away. With nothing to do but face that wall, we humans have the potential to make use of what we have. There is no meaning in that wall, we create the meaning around that wall.

We are humans because there is death. Things matter because they have an end. With the capabilities of humans to do anything, what makes life interesting? Kindness and passion. The kindness to yourself and others, the genuine care you have towards your own explorations and others' considerations, and the passionate emotion we all feel towards something that can influence us to make meaning of our small, fleeting and ridiculous lives. Every problem in the world that makes us want to give up and face that wall, that death, that end of meaning, are always dismantled by the opposite of its roots, apathy. Kindness and passion are the two main concept that pushes us to create a sense and path in our lives, even with the changes and failures, kindness and passion will continue to beat our hearts and pushes us to rise again and again while enjoying the act of learning.

Success, fame, glory, and money are all meaningless in the face of death. As humans who had always went beyond of common things. Kindness and passion are all we need.