Seething

I’ve always felt that C and I had a psychic connection. This evening I am feeling the hatred. I am feeling his seething rage. I can feel his hands around my neck again. His full weight on top of me. He wants me gone. I can tell. I’m having nightmares. This is awful. It feels like more than ptsd though. I can feel the thoughts. I can feel the hatred. I should be doing more to stay safe. 

3:33am 5/24/26