I hate Sexism, both Machism and Hembrism

I fucking hate this, sometimes I might joke with any of those 2, but when it actually comes to practice, when there is actual machism going on or some shit related to this, it makes me really uncomfortable, specially when I get blamed for being a male, for real that makes me want to tear off my skin.

I can't fucking handle that feeling, when I just get blamed because of this, or judged just for being a male.
I stopped going to the psychologist because she used to fucking blame me for the things that I have done for being a man.but like, bro I was inexperienced, and I hadn't the maturity as I have now.
She never stood on my shoes, or tried to empathize with me, and her advice were more like threatening. she never cared about how awful I was feeling, fuck.

Also my mom that when I do something wrong, she says that it was because I am a man. fr I want to learn, I don't want to be like this, I want to understand better.

I don't want to be dumb, and specially I don't want to be perceived as a pervert or stalker for being a male. I can't watching a girl into their eyes without feeling guilty, I feel guilty every time for everything 

I hate how my lessons of a certain subject in the University, my teacher keeps bringing the machism topic, and like, feel guilty for the things she says, I don't say nothing about that, I stay shut.

there is a girl in work who doesn't hesitate to throw a comment saying that we men are a plague to the world, that we all should die and that we are all cheaters and perverts, and she looks at me while saying so. I haven't done anything wrong, I stay shut in work and, when she and other workers blame me for doing something wrong. I feel reeally sad, I would like to cry right there, but I can't