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im not new here, but i never posted. . . idk what im looking for when posting this, maybe i just hope someone will help me out.
i feel so lost in this time of my life... i mean, i always felt lost. nobody ever actually helped me find myself.
for context, im 16 yo and i have no friends. it's been like this since i was 12 yo. i don't know whats the problem with me, but i am nobody's first choice. actually, i think people hate me.. but ngl, i hate them too. maybe that's why i never created such a bond with anyone? everytime i feel safe with someone, they just fuck it up. its not entirely their fault, im pretty fucked up mentally.. but not once has anyone tried to understand me, they just lied about understanding. i know its not anyone's job to help me, to love me, but it hurts. everybody else around me has a special someone, a bf, a gf, a bsf.. and i just sit there.. i lowk feel misplaced. i wonder how my life could be in any other place, would i find someone who likes me for me? will i always have to mask my emotions and interests in order to have people talk to me?? sigh, i feel incredibly sick about myself. maybe i won't get past mary.
im not even gonna go in details.. i don't feel like that's necessary
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GdsFvBnd
It truly is a struggle. I had one person who was my world. My best friend. He still is my world, and I mean a lot to him, but his world resides in another. I wish he knew that since that time has past, I never truly got over him, and I still love him all the same.
I wish you all of my luck to find happiness in this world, we all deserve to find it someday:)
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i feel so sorry,, i know how falling out with people feels and it's such a struggle. i hope we can both get happier<3
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Lime
I find it easiest to connect with others based on shared interests, without expecting the bond to form past such, and then sometimes earn a genuine friendship through that by chance. But it took me years of painful solitude to develop such easygoing mindset.
thank you very much, it's just hard to find people with the same interest as me with whom i click. but ill work on that
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