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i think there's something deeply wrong with me. i genuinely feel that i am completely unlovable. i know thayt is so cliche, but i guess what i'm wondering is if you've never been loved, is there a way to learn how to love yourself later in life? ijust turned 23 years old, and i've been sorta...late term adopted by a close friend's grandma. I'm living with them and they're making sure i have everything i need. i'm doing better now than i have in a long time, so why am i not getting better? i'm filled with this cancerous jealousy of my friemd, and the fact that he's always had his needs met in a way that allowed him to exceed at music andf art. he's incredibly smart and creative....why can't i be like that, will i ever truly exceed at anything, and if i do, will i ever have the confidence to know that i'm good? i'm supposzed to be getting better...i guess i am but this itch in my stomach makes me so frustrated and angry with myself. i feel useless right. now too, i haven't had boots on the grounds since i got to San Diego. i've given my entirte adult life to doing direct action and now im just useless. i feel useless. am i useless? im 23 and i don't know who i am.
what the fuck is wrong wirth me
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Someone
Just take your time to heal :/
Grow past your past, it's understandable that you envy your friend, if a childhood isn't normal then it's not normal, and a kid doesn't deserves bad and wrong
Take your time to understand who you are and that you deserve everything, what you like, who you love, and uhhh oops I'm bad at this
But I swear, overtime it'll be better :p
noncanonized045
No one might ever figure themselves out until way later, especially since the 20s are meant to be the “figuring out” stage of our lives. The main thing I try to do to not feel worthless about myself is to try to not compare myself and situations to others, but I still do that time to time and is inevitable. Focusing on yourself and your own accomplishments helps you grow and forge your own path that doesn’t rely on others approval. It’s a long journey to love yourself, especially if you feel that you yourself are unlovable. Seeing how you affect others in life such as your friends and family could probably change how you see yourself, there are people out there who are positively affected by your presence, if you were truly unlovable then no one would want to be around you. This is the mindset I try to instill in my own life to keep on going.
Good luck and stay safe brochacho 🤙