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I feel like I have no support, but I do. I feel like I’m doing it all alone. Almost like the support I get isn’t enough. Nothing is enough. Nothing calms the thoughts, the feelings, physically & emotionally. Why do I feel like I have no control over myself? 

Why do I feel I have no control over the things only I am suppose to have control of? 

Why can’t I be consistent? 

Well, I guess you could say I kinda am. 

Consistent at being inconsistent. 

Imagine that. How fun. 

All the feelings and thoughts that come with knowing that about myself. 

I second guess any word I say, any thought I have..everything. Second guess everything about myself.

Who am I? 

I wish I had a new brain. 

Anyone want to trade ???