march 06th, 2026

the thing is, i dont want to kill mhyself in an active suicidal way, im not planning on doing it anytime soon, but i wish i could just shut down for some hours without people around me getting worried or bothering me. it's not their fault that they're worried about me and my diagnosis, i just wish my mom and sister wouldn't look at me with so much pity, like im going to have an episode at any moment. 

today there's no brighter note.