update to vent 4

So it turns out my old friend didnt miss me at all and was annoyed that i wanted to contact her. Btw i ended up cutting myself bc wtf how could you say "bro remembered me after a year" but im the one who had a crush on you and always drew you and dreamed of you how could you say that i really thought our friendship was special. What makes things worse is that i only had contact to her through another friend since she blocked me so she basically talked like that about me to another friend. But whats even worse is that the friend didnt stand up for me or maybe they did and they didnt tell me idk. Anyways ive been thinking of ending my friendship with that other friend too since we dont talk that much anymore and by that i mean i text her but she doesnt text me. I guess she has real life friends so im not that important since im only an online friend.

anyways i should focus on my new friends now instead of my old ones