"goals"

everyone around me always knew who to be. they had clear personality, interests, they knew who they are. im not trying to be different, im not special. i just never knew as much as others. i stare down at the "future carrier goal" sheet at school and try not to cry. i never planned a future because i never thought ill have one. but now im faced with needing to know everything. why should i know? im not in the right mind to go to school 5 days a week and i should know what i wanna do 9 to 5 for the rest of my life? does everyone know but me? i have no goals whatsoever. no future, probably. i have lots of hobbies but unless ill become a celebrity they are no good.