its been a while

 there was a time when I kissed and didn't care, when we fucked and looked at each other with love and kindness... now its just text every once in a blue an it kills me. to think of you with someone doesn't hurt me, it makes me happy someone likes that 5inch pencil, it was the best buttplug cause it never Hurt... I still love you and care but that loving feeling is gone, gone, gone.

Now its all on me, would it be so bad to give it a rest and focus on me?

Im not a bad person, I just want to not have to do it all on my own...

 Lonley and needing a hug but all I get is helped to my knees