Hurts sm

I struggle myself with substances but watching my two friends turn to that shit hurts more than ever, one of them is a senior and watching him slowly destroy himself has hurt me more than ever. The only times he’s been sober have been when he hangs out with me and my friends, I’ve almost lost him this year and it’s scary. Then my other friend or well ex friend has been hanging around people who vape and take zynes. It was awful to me, to watch someone who was so against anything related to start. He hangs around people who hook up with one another and have that thot mentality. The two sweetest people I know are now dying, and watching them kill themeleves reminds me of what people are watching ME do. And I know it hurts to stop especially when you’re hurting and not able to do anything with yourself. I honestly cannot fathom how awful pain can look to my own friends until I see them struggle just as I do.