I am driven by pettiness

yet another way too long bulletin that is now getting turned into a blog:

I was thinking about my biggest motivator, yk they say like some people are more motivated about the potential rewards they could get from doing something while others are more motivated by the fear of the consequences of not doing that thing

I'd say if I had to choose between those two I am more driven by the reward, but to be more I am driven by pettiness ( bro said the title  ) 

Like I always feel like I gotta prove something no matter what im sitting here rn my throat feels like straight sandpaper because during choir I kept hearing this girl sayin how shit the choir was and that we needed to sing louder, first of all its a school choir I dont understand how you're expecting professional level singing 2. after I heard that I sang the loudest I possibly could the loudest loudest HOPE THAT WAS LOUD ENOUGH FOR YOU BIATCHHH

I wanna drink 2 gallons of throat coat now holy moly, another time I had told someone that the original lyrics to lets get it started by the black eyed peas were ''lets get retarded'' and they were like okk suree, which is so annoying to me its like they think your so dumb they gotta placate you like a toddler by just going along with what your saying but with this tone that just SCREAMS im better than you, I know this might seem like an irrational thing to say but you just had to hear how they said it

And its so petty cuz in the grand scheme of things it really doesn't matter if they believed me in that case or not but I PHYSICALLY couldn't continue living if they didn't know I was right, I was genuinely feigning and begging them to just search it up that I started offering them money to just SEARCH IT UP, thank goodness they didn't actually take my money and ended up searching it up 

AND SEEING THAT I WAS RIGHT BOOOYAHHHH

uhh I probably got better examples in the memory bank but this is so long I wouldn't blame yall if you said ''to long didnt read'' 

anyways thanks for reading my essay

Additional comments that I wrote in the bulletin: 

atleast im a pretty fast typer so its not like im hunched over working on these stupid bulletins for hours on end, respect to coolmathgames but in middle school typing.com was the GOAT

I realized that my typing is a strange mix of being gramatically correct and also not, for example i'll add alot of commas but as im reading it back it always seems like I miss the parts I needed to put commas into the most, this is probably a side effect of my fast typing bcs I dont notice these errors until im already posting the bulletin

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all these ramblings in the comments that always seem to accompany my bulletins are honestly more for me than you guys, I got a bunch of thoughts I need to spill out or i'll be restless before I go to bed, which is alot and most of them do go into my beloved google docs

Just incase anyone is like ''oh man..I gotta read all of these cuz what if expired finally says something important in one of these?? '' which probably none of yall are thinking but I gotta cover all my bases yk yk ( we all saw that userbar you dont gotta say it expired  )

when I say professional yapper...oh I MEANT IT

uh I dont know why its orange 🤷‍♂️ now im just using these as a way to preserve these bulletins so I can look back on them in the future, I think it'd be somewhat interesting

Most of the bulletins I make at the moment I dont turn into blogs I just pick which ones I think are extra EXTRA long, just if anyone was curious on what the point of making these into bulletins and blogs was